All I Want is a Roller Coaster

Do you ever have those times that you just feel blah? Hawaii was incredible but ever since I got back I've just been feeling stuck/stagnant/blah, whatever you want to call it I'm there. It's kind of like when I was younger and too short to ride the roller coaster so I had to settle for the merry-go-round. A merry-go-round has its place in an amusement park and don't get me wrong, I always go on it at least once. But it is nothing like a roller coaster, not even a kiddie one.

Around and around in a circle going up, down, up down but never feeling the anticipation as you are pulled up the first big hill or the rush as you speed through the loop or even better the feeling of weightlessness, that you could do anything, as you speed over the quick but gravity-defying bumps on the track. At the end of a merry-go-round ride you don't think ooh let's do that again, you think well that was nice, what's next.

That's where I'm at right now except I feel like I can't get off to see what's next. I know there is some huge coaster looming in the distance waiting for me to get on, but I'm strapped to this painted horse going in circles with no end in sight.

And maybe I shouldn't be complaining, I'm not depressed and the merry-go-round I'm stuck on isn't a bad one. It's just not a roller coaster. And once you've been on a roller coaster once, it's tough to be satisfied with anything else.