Consistently Me

A couple of nights ago someone mentioned that they thought I had a "type A" personality. My first reaction was to take offense to the comment and then I realized that okay maybe I do have a type A personality sometimes. So I went home and took a personality test.

You know what I learned from the test? My personality is all over the map. For every single question I answered I had to think it through and ask myself is this talking about at work, in sports, at home, in relationships, etc. I couldn't just pick one answer for what I would do in a specific circumstance or which characteristic fit me best. I kept going back and forth on words like, "Organized," that fit me completely most of the time but definitely not at home.

I had a terrible volleyball game last night and to get out the frustration, I went home and played RockBand. There is something theraputic about drumming VERY hard and VERY loudly. When I told a guy at work about it today, he laughed and told me that he never would've imagined me doing something like that. Goes to show how much people don't know about me - probably because I compartamentalize and fit my personality into a box for whatever situation I'm in. At work I try to be responsible, organized, confident, upbeat, and positive. But as soon as I get home the organization goes out the window. And when I'm around people I don't know, the confidence goes out the window and I become shy and reserved.

Interesting isn't it? I wonder how my life would be if I could just stay consistently me throughout the day and throughout everything I do. And if these traits come and go with the box I'm in, what is actually me?